So anyway.. Ari was asking if I ever looked back on how things have changed over time in SL. Boy do I ever! I was explaining that sometimes, some posts in this blog make me sad when I look back, and how sometimes, I just want to delete those posts and move forward. Some people, some moments, mark a part of you that is forever changed by the marking they leave. The marks on my heart, they are filled with good and bad memories. Sometimes you don't delete the things that remind you of the people who left those marks, if only to be reminded of how sour sometimes things turn, so you don't make the same mistakes again, especially with some of the same people.
I do need to update this blog though, because the past year and a half has truly been amazing overall!
Again, the family has changed a little, Tori is no longer with us, but the best news ever is that some of my kiddos I thought would never be mine again.. have returned home. :)
Evie & Noah have come back home, bringing Reese, Caity and Noelle with them! When they came back to me, I can't explain how happy I was! That day was truly a day of celebration, my heart was so full and the hope that I'd held onto for so long finally meant I had my kids back with me. I fully admit the feeling of deep loss when they weren't part of my life. We remained in contact, but, as things go, things were just different before they came back home.
For some time now, things with my SL family have been just SO good that sometimes I wonder when something will come along and try to make things all crazy. I'm keeping my eyes peeled for trouble so I can send it packing if it does come calling!
We get busy all the time, one of us is always off doing something or distracted, and real life intrudes way more than we would like it to sometimes, but we are really close, and speaking for myself, I think we're all really happy. I know I am!
We just celebrated Christmas in SL and Dev & Trev's Birthday, but it's been a packed year and a half of events! Noah's birthday was really cool, complete with exploding buildings and pirate ships and crazy cannibals and the Kraken! We blew things up and went on a treasure hunt and just had a blast! Dev & Trev's Birthday was super fun too.. we went bowling first then went Mario Kart racing at 2 places! Evie's Birthday just passed but she's been so busy with school and real life being a pain that we haven't had a chance to make party plans as of yet.. it will happen though!
We all miss Evie when she has to be away, Noah I think misses her fiercely, she's like his twinner, they are so close! I feel bad when he misses seeing her. When she's in with us though, and the time comes to let her leave, I don't want to.. I want to find tape or staples instead and make her stay. We love you that much Evie :)
I feel so lucky when it comes to family in SL to be honest, I have an amazing Mom, FINALLY! Who truly is the Mom I never had, the mom who IS my MOM in my heart, and is stuck with us forever! We've been together 15 months in SL, which is the longest we've ever been kept by a family in SL! Even the rough patches (and there have been a minute few) are solved and gone before they ever come to a place of feeling hard or hurtful or stressful.
When I do look back, the only thing I regret is having lost certain people, sometimes losing time or feeling like I wasted emotion on some people who in the end made me feel like my emotions were worthless. I know that the people in my life now, do not make me feel that way, and the feelings of love are so strong! Gone are the days of feeling manipulated and used, and for that I am grateful.
We just switched houses after being in the last one for nearly a year, it's been a bit hard on me because it doesn't feel like home yet. I'm sure it will in time, we have to start making memories in the new place for sure! When I get a chance, I'll do another video.. I've got one waiting to be finished.. *coughs* but for now.. here's a pic or a few. :) Happy 2015!
